who can understand?

"Losu, no one will ever understand you..."

What i want,
Will so difficult to achieved?

My 'Vvery Bbest' friend also can't gave me what i want...
Who else?

I wish you can understand me...
Although I never thought you do...

I wish you can understand me...
As I always understand your position...

I wish you can understand me...
If I done wrong...
I don't meant to it...

But,
What if I really LOST?
Who can explain to me?
And,
Who can control myself?
Who can look after me?

Mom are not around me...
Though she does,
She is old already...
What for she take care of me instead the responsibility was I?

Brothers has done their best...

Friends...
Will be my only sources...

Thought so many buddies...
So many trusted buddies...
Eventually,
No one understand me...
No one willing to spend more time to me...
~During I really need you

I will never count on you anymore...
Forgive me if my trust on you end by today...

Losu,
Needs your support...
It just simple...

I really in the 'illness' today...
Again,
No one can understand...
And no one will believed...

May be,
One day,
You will believed...
But,
I won't let it happen...

Between sacrify me to prove to you...
I rather to sacrify you...

That's what I learned today...

please

PLEASE...
Please don't add on stress to me anymore...
Please...
I going in depression...
Seriously...
I starting seek for consultant in college...
Don't support me doesn't matter...
But,
Really...
Not play play...
Don't give pressure to me...

My roomate- chocolate- WS- Hao Gui Vui birthday

Again...
5 of us...
WS gang...
Go out together...
Previous time was Carwen birthday...
This time...
Is Chocolate- CHIN KUI VUI
Birthday...
15 July 2009.

We- WS...
Really old already...
Age old, friendship also old.
Don't know why,
Each time of our gathering...
We will very appreciate the chance being together...
Maybe inside each person heart...
It knows...
We hardly have the chance...
Though we staying together under one roof...

WS was form in November 1998...
It been 11 years already...
We all:
WS-{Hao Gui Vui} Chocolate
WS-{Hao Gui Kong} Carwen
WS-{Hao Gui Mun} Lycan
WS-{Hao Gui Yung} Leslie
WS-{Hao Gui Chun} Klien
WS-{Hao Gui Lo} Losu

Again...
Ah mun couldn't join us...
Due to he is studying at Kota Kinabalu...
Nevermind...
Still have us...
5 of us...
Get into my SS 2755 C...
Went to one of the nicest view at KL...
Look Out Point!
To celebrate Hao Gui Vui birthday...

Old man celebration...
Was only Yum Cha...
Without cake...
Without cream...
Without pool anymore...
But camera still have la...


We didn't took much photo...
Know de la...
Guys ma...
And...
See, all ah pek look already...

*The tobacco will represent Hao Gui Mun





One thing I must say...
The food there was quite nice...
Especially the pizza...
I love those food of the restaurant there much...
It give me a sense of traveling at the Arab country...
Hee...
We chat...
Relax and happily...
When we recall back the pass...
Its really...
Looks like it just a moment of changing...
Shock!
The previous of us...
Was a gang with a piece of mind of "friendship never be ended" attaching...
But,
Every one deny...
Include my mom..
Now, we proved!
We are a friend more than friendship today...
Close to a housemate,
Close to a colleague,
Close to a business partner,
And close to a FAMILY...
WS will never end
It was a compulsory nature fact...

Guys,
Proud to have you all being together all the life is going...
There will nothing can destroy between us...
No matter what happen...
Love you all always...
And Happy Birthday To Kui Vui.

PD trip - 10 of us!

It was 3rd of July...
A trip which has plan for long time ago...
Finally is being "on" by two car heading to Seremban...

Than Than' s Iswara VS. Won Won's Chevolet...

Sleepless!
Due to go clubbing the night before...
So,
I need to apologize to Won jie...
As i sleep
During you are trying very hard to drive...
Anyhow,
We spend about an hour to reach Seremban
Where we would have our breakfast!
-BAK KUT TEH

Actually, Seremban Bak Kut Teh was so so only... hee...

Just wonder why still got meter in the modern century...

After the breakfast,
We went to Chia Lee's house for preparing the BBQ raw food...
Thanks Chia Lee's mom...
Cause she not only spend us the chicken wings,
But she also made us lots of different food with everything ready to cook condition...
Anyhow,
Due to we are over excited...
We started have shooting photo spree...


They are to stress in assignment le...
Zzz...

If you don't like us,
Better stay away from us,
Otherwise you will get hurt,
Cause we all have incredible "power",
-CRAZY

From left,
It was Business Black Hourse- LOSU,
Genius Fashion Designer- Lao Gei,
And Future Top Model- Than Than

Then we go Port Dickson!
Inside the car...
Soon Wei keep asking..
Sea leh? Beach leh?
Haha...
Finally...
Is hiding behind this Hotel...
The Glory Beach Hotel...

Which is Chia Lee's cousin working place...
And because of him...
We get to rent a PENTHOUSE!
With normal price only...
Hehe.....


After we have a rest...
Some having a nap...
Some stay a the casino table...
That's where Pei Wen and Than Than learn new game...
-IN BETWEEN
Because there are too many "High Hand" le,
After more than an hour struggling in the war...
I forced to loss money...
ZZZ...
Without wasting the time...
We...
Go to the beach then!
The beach...

Still ok la...
Not consider white sand but still consider nice beach lo...

-Sun Shine Girls & Boys

The sea...

Obviously it was Zzz...
Vin said even can see some oil and black thing floating on the surface...

We pretend enjoy for some while de actually... Because we not really have fun in the polluted sea..
Lagi, Soon Wei and KC has "break the Light"...
Haih...



Therefore,
We shift to another place...
-The POOL
Zzz...
Wonder why want to go pool...
Since MU also got a swimming pool...
Haha...
We intend to go the adult there...
But swim guard doesn't allow us...
Due to we not wearing the swimming suit...
Thus,
We go the kids pool...
Where we has stole the kids fun paradise...
Hee...
"Hey sweety, can we join You?"

Lol, what a shame...
None of the female member of our gang wear BIGINI...
And...
Making us need to go child pool...
Hao sim lo...

Jon,
So sorry of bullying you...
But,
Don't know why,
Very like to punish you la...
Kakaka!!

TITANIC only survivor!

Mr Alvin Lim...

-This is the photo that I like the most

All of the Da Jie Da...

Our hand all turn "old hand" already...

After have some blissful hours in the pool...

We leaved...
This time...
Those parent and the children are the happiest!
As we monopoly their place for the whole evening le...
Goh goh jie jie say sorry ya...
We went to the beach again...
To have a view of the sunset...

We will never forget the beautiful sunset...

Back home...

We take turn...
One by one...
Have a shower respectively...
Sharing bathroom...
Sharing shampoo...
Until all of us become fresh smell...
Gather all the stuff...
BOOM!
We depart to our BBQ venue...
Bad...
Our reserved place have been used by people...
After Chia Lee has made the complaint...
Our party at the beach side has begin...

The fire...

Although it's dirty...
Although it's sweaty...
Although I ate the less...
But i still enjoying...
Cause...
I love BBQ a lot!

Dance...Laugh...Eat...

They high already...
Wan Wan really looks fatter...
Wakakaka!!!

This is "Chia Lee, Devil"
But not "Chia leee , Angel"


Bochi also gila already...

Sometimes...
The old man has his own creativity...
But, those youngster also not bad...
Very respect old man...
So good to 'layan'...

YUMMM!!!
Seng!!!

Again...
We couldn't separate from alcohol...
We even...
Cheers with the ocean!
Nice feel~




Back home...
To continue our another half Tequila...
No fun...
Cause all been trained already...
No one drunk...
Next time should buy more liao...
Anyhow...
We don't want let the thing stop...
We turns our living room to be a mini club...
Dance with the music...
And "mambo dance" also coming...
Really Sot Sot!
Due to I really exhausted...
I went to sleep without joining them for the 'casino part 2'!

Next day morning,
We relax...
Some wake up late...
Those guys...
Go dao pao for the girls...
Cause we can't cook the maggie we brought..
As the kettle was too dirty...



We eat and watch TV together...
All tired but feel recharged...







Before back...
Some of them didn't feel took enough photo...
Therefore,
We go to the beach again and have a shooting spree...


The Michael Jackson!

We will always remember You!

Bau busuk!

Lucky that noon not so hot...
Otherwise,
We become Sakai then...

Cheras! Don't beat me ya~~

But hor,
Lucky you have 178cm...
You should less burden than me...


Between...
We have took some secret photo where i can't post here...
Pai seh...

We have the balance in our budget...
Let's go makan!
But they went eat Seremban most famous fried crap!
I cham...

Lucky, I got fish to eat..
Actually the rest of the dish also nice de...

You see the finger! Cacat!

Alvin too!

That time...
Only all of us know Soon Wei has a lot of incredible skills...
Za dao!
We also went to Xiu Bao shop...
Before we back home...

DADA!
Without hesitating...
We sapu many Xiu Bao!

After that...
We went to Chia Lee house again...
And her mom again make us some Kuih...
Damn nice...
This trip,
We end by listening Chia Lee's piano..
Sweet~
After that,
We back home lu...

my destiny

Moody...
Yes...
I'm get in trouble again...
Alone at home make me more emotional...
That's why...
I stop the music...
And write down my emotion over here...
People always tell me...
"If yours then is yours"
And i...
Is whose?

Both YOU always make me confuse...
Both YOU are giving me same situation...
Is that i must handle my relationship in this way?
I wish i can gave the same to YOU as before i did to that one...
Even more than that...
And i knew...
I'm willing...
If for YOU...
Sorry for indirectly comparing both YOU...
Actually i not in comparing...
Just want to tell YOU...
I have got the selection frighten...
Long time ago after the previous case...
And i couldn't give YOU the same...
Though my willingness heart are hope so...

I beg for a single chance...
But just a simple chance i always fail to have...
Is nothing to feel incorrect...
If i felt envy to previous Mr. X and current Mr. X...
Now i really envy current Mr. X...
As you always have the chance with you...
I didn't blame the fairness that come to me...
I just hope YOU can know me...
As i...
May have your faith...
As i never have the chance to present it
To my beloved...
Even though i,
Only hope to present it once in my life...
And hoping...
That was YOU...

I want to speak out!
To everybody...
Losu is just as simple as a farmer in the paddy field...
Although i appear with a military post...
I not interest people like me because i'm a military...
Seeking protection...
Instead,
I extremely care those people with me in the paddy field...
I love you all...
I finding YOU too...
I knew my military attire making a gap between us...
So sorry for it...
No matter how i try...
I also couldn't make it become simple...
Because to protect my cares have always set in my duty of me...

We have end right here...
I'm accept the fact...
Yet, i'm okay now...
And i respect my destiny...
Got fate,
Text YOU message again one year later...
Take care...