is enjoying the lonelymoment now...

i resign...
first time dint tell my family when do such decision...
i dono how to told them...
i don want to explain...
just want do what i plan to do...
what i really want to do...

i think everyone deserve a right to do his or her own preference...
if that decision doesn't affect others...

Freedom... uncontrollable... commitment free...
everyone also hope to become...
but is that we can go for it?

ya, if that doesn't effect others...
otherwise, is our responsibility to do something even though we don like to do...

is Enjoying Lonely...
i good to become single again...
now no need headache of that thing anymore...
i do really like business...
business fanatic...
hope to use my business,
to contribute to the society...
hope to use my business,
to tell my people that this is my hobby...
nth special in my life if i scarify my this hobby...
i love it so much...

from small,
i am a chinese chest player...
xiang qi teach me how to plan, create strategy, think long term,
count possibility, and how efficient i can achieve that.

ya, indeed.
i am a planner, strategiest, and estimator...
i hard to have this skill too...
cause it could condemn my personality...
but somehow, once awhile i will accidentally apply in wrong way...
cant say anything...
this is fate..
i born to have this...
and is my duty to use it in good side...
but if somehow i uncontrol or accidentally wrong using...
then is the meaning that is not my right time.
is destiny.

i would say i so appreciate what i have now...
i doesnt care whether i lost or i gain...
as long as it belong to me...
should be proud to have. chance to own..
nothing is eternity.
we just need to know we are in this law...
the law of universal.
haha...

if love me, don leave me. if wan leave me, don come love me.

suan le ba Iuan....
U did your best le...
if not yours then is not...
leave it...

it been almost 3 months...
i been justify as a devil...
i just dono why...
knowing me is this person...
but suddenly can so easily judge negative on me...
i just a normal person...
will do wrong also...
but why once i do wrong will so serious judgement...
till cant have chance to deal at all...
is so meaningless la my life...
everytime also like this...
even her also...
thought she will look out of the box...
but is same too...

ppl got high hope on me...
ppl feel i great...
ppl attracted by me...
but once i cannot do what they want...
there la...
a lot blaming...
a lot disappointment...
i will do my best...
can just sometime give some excuse on me?
why i can understand u all...
but u cant?

everythg has pass...
but memories still...
wan to forget it...
but i know is real...
but it was different than now...
i be thankful...
for making me more stronger now...
just if,
i could success...
i will thanks again...

double rainbow

what to write leh...
dono...
is so angry now...
but is still happy...
hungry... wanna out for dinner...
but no key go out..
honn havent back yet... nia sing...

dono why o...
recover le..
ok le...
still want make myself so no face...
haih...
is no point...
i dont care one...
face is not important to me in relationship...

heart so peace already...
eventhough many fucking respond from her...
use to it...
will bu suang la sure...
but really not like last time le...
happy with my performance right now...
stronger alot...
maybe win lose for me is not a big deal...
i think relationship no win lose one ba...
want ma go,
don wan ma say...
i enjoy being this style till now...
at least i will respect myself.
i dono other people how...
but losu is hard to let go person...
well...
everyone will have his weakness n strengh...
i weak of that...
what to shame about?
i human also ma~

today i saw double rainbow leh!!!
two rainbow!
haha, sorry i really first time see that...
people say after rain only got rainbow...
hmm...
meaningful ar...
i know i enjoying the rainbow.

many busy now le...
since i start my engine a month ago...
planning to have second kiosk too..
hmm....
is really following my plan 3 month before...
though was an obstacle come in...
but yet i still know what i doing...
just dont feel want be to logic n wise in relation only...
everyday face many job also use brain already burst...
no possible wan me face fren n family also need act ba...
i love them o...
act to them i so guo bu qu...

thanks "heart sutra"...
teh la kat teh...
dono wat...
but very nice music...
hmm...
i know i need to do what...
gv me sometime...
i always know...