love

It always are my only 'left'...
I do not deny that I have some desperation on it...
1 year in form five...
2 years in diploma...
1 year in advance diploma...
Have met many 'girls' friends...
Anyhow...
I still single now...
Haha...

Every year,
I hope and hope that I could escape from celebrate Christmas with WS gang...
I wish so much that I could have someone to choose a Christmas present for...
.....
.....
.....
I really wish that can have a 'couple' Christmas day this year la...

I fall in love to someone...
Accidentally...
Yea, I was thinking of her in this moment...
But so what?
It won't be happen the same to her too...
And I don't think that we stand a good chance to be together...
As...
There always have so many difficulties for 2 person to be together...
If both are in serious...

I improve already...
Become more steady...
Hmm...
Don't know why i will fall into this situation again...
Don't know why i will attracted by her...
Maybe i too lonely?
Or i forced myself to love some one...?

There are so much different between this time and the previous...
Cause i wonder why i can stand so calm and steady this time...
Is it i choose to behave more defensive?
Yea...
I think so...
And i know...
If i not defend myself...
It won't be a good ending to me now...
As it is not in the right timing also...
*always tied in this reason...Zzz...

Sometimes,
Action will be criticized...
Sometimes,
No action will be abandon...
*Guy really xin ku...
And i,
Choose to walk according to the fate...
Is that a friendship? or an uncommon relationship?
Is up to the destiny...
Since the past has told me that i should treat myself better...
Hee...
What i worried only if we both have less communication as time pass...
But,
What can do?
I will just give my best...

Going to decide went oversea after graduate...
Haven't confirm yet...
But if really make it,
That will be better to be alone...
Or else everyone suffer...

Let's go clubbing!
Should enjoy more freedom that i have right now!
This is what should a single guy do!
Before being appreciated...

Sorry...

Before I shift to Kluang...
I have a group of very close "girl" friends...
Who have same class with me when I was in primary...
And,
They become the female of WS in the secondary...
We always celebrate Chinese New Year...
And,
Sometimes...
When we-WS organise BBQ,
They will not be exempted...
For me...
They are my only "girls" friend during that time...
As I was a student of "Boys" school during secondary...

Still remember,
The night that I last stay at Sandakan...
It was 31st December of 2003...
We celebrated the coming 2004 together...
CHING'S father even bring us to the beach...
To watch the fireworks!
As the matter of the fact,
That was my farewell night to me too...
Everyone was upset as we are virtual good friends...
Beers accompany us in the gloomy night...
Due to all of us unwilling to separate...
Thus,
All turn to bed at Ching's house without going back own home...

Still remember,
One day we BBQ at Leslie house,
Those girls prepares the french fries,
And the guys set up the BBQ equipment...
When we are exhausted of the activity...
WEI suddenly feed us a piece of french fries to our mouth each...
Ahh...
That moment was unforgettable...

Still remember,
When I pray for the Guan Yin at BUI'S house...
During the Chinese New Year...
Making them feels so weird of my behave...
Until now they still mentioning this things...
Aiks...
It just a ritual...

Still remember,
One year SAN organized her birthday party...
WS have prepare a very nice present to her...
But,
We purposely wrap it like a shit!
Zzzz...
After we have the sweet dine...
War has started...
CRACY!
The entire kitchen of San's house have painted with cream...
Despite our face too...
Yeah...
That was the most interesting "cream" game among many time in my life...

Still remember,
Leslie and me chat with Ling in Leslie room...
That LING question us lots of guys matter...
Also,
She tell us the true story about her too...
Funny...
But it was the longest conversation with Ling jor...

Any how...
All is my fault...
I apologize to you all...
San, Ling, Bui, Ching, Wei....
Because...
Time pass...
I have mistakenly "forgotten" you all...
Really not deserve for a forgiveness...

I felt losing two years being together in Form 4 and 5...
Is a massive loss for me...
Although I really have insufficient time...
To maintain to all my buddies and fellow...
But I don't think that was an excuse...
I really feel bad...
SORRY...

I just hope that we can have the chance to built our new memories together again...
Like Leslie suggest...
2 years later...
We go for an oversea trip!
That was excellent!
Because we could have the chance to create our new memories...
You know...
Sometime,
I was not purposely to keep quite during gathering...
In fact,
I just wish to talk some current matters with you all...
Talking to the pass only will make me feel as if we just could have the friendship till the secondary...
I don't wish that,
If like that,
I rather not to speak out...
Then I didn't feel so heart break...

To you all:
I promise...
Losu still Losu...
Will not be change...
Though time pass...
I have met many new friends...
But I still are your old LOSU!

*Maybe we couldn't be together so frequent,
Moreover we couldn't know when Wei will back from New Zealand,
On the other hand, I did not back Sandakan so often,
We just wish that our friendship will always living in our deep heart...

Final year of study life...

Going end of my internship soon...
My ABF1 friends...
They all now happily back to their own hometown already...
Soonwei, Jon, Yiyone, KC...
Alone at KL...

Ask me how about my internship...
Hmm....
COMPLEX...
Anyhow,
I enjoy my this three months internship life...

Coming study life will be a nightmare for me...
Don't know how to manage my time table...
Everyday think of this...
I felt a bit unwilling to go so 'fast'...
If I can be a normal student...
Whose only thing to do was pass the exam...
Then every month received 'salary' from parent...
How good was the life!

I love ABF1 gang...
Both old and new friends...

SOON WEI- The one most similar with me! Although only have 3 years friendship, but just like WS feel.

BOCHI- My dear buddies... The college life from beginning to the end... No couple with her really is a question mark...

MR. JONATHAN- Though busy, but still can manage to have some spare time with us... That was his best already...

WAN WAN- Miss her always in every time the gang without her! Only a bit sien as never see her angry...

ALVIN- Without him, sometimes no topic. With him, sometimes very very sohai...

CHIA LEE- Although sometimes I don't know whether she understand or not, but she is sincere to give her best...

WEN DA JIE- Always bully non-hokien-nang. If less da xiao jie pi chi, she kick me I also want have her at my side...

WON WON- Our ever little sis... She is our source of spirit & energy! Maybe is a nature if stand at her side gua...

KC- No met him is a loss... Sometimes really hope that he will think of himself more a bit...

Today,
I saw lots of freshy...
They all very young...
Lot's of 'cun' chicks also...
Make me think of the freshy of Me 3 years ago...
Haih...
So fast...
Four years college life has gone 75%...
Although I didn't produce a good result...
Although I still have no girl friend...
Although I don't have lecturer love me...
But I was proud to say that I have know those guys above...

Start school is my last year of studies...
Actually is not the junior young...
Is I old already...
I know is impossible to turn back the time...
But I just wish I can enjoy well the only one year left for me in Tar college here...
Which also...
The FINAL year of study my life...

The 3 years journey - Partly Completed

Confuse...
Don't know what is the feeling right now...
Should I happy or should I grieve...
Don't know why...
Always trapped into this situation...
Zzz...
When only I can get some relief?

Actually...
There are some things that I should glad about it...
Haha!
I finally own my FIRST business based...
At Wangsa Maju Jusco...
Is a KIOSK only...
Partnering between Bagoods Network and Digital Million...
Today is the 5th day...
And very fortunate...
We have customers to support us...

Actually is another improvement for us la...
Hah! I think in this blog really had recorded down all the growing process of my business liao...Really tak dao malu...
But anyhow,
Compared to the starting stage...
Really from 'Don't Know' everything to today a small structure company...
Zzz...
Though still negative profit...
But at least now Bagoods's debts is still continue reducing...
Hee...
Not bad ma...
As I said before...
If I have no loss... (in financial)
I already made profit... (in experience)
Now...
Still in the stage of paying learning fees! Hee...

Really didn't think to have the stage of today...
Maybe I should say...
Really didn't expect that I really could reach this stage...
Hmm...
I still remember...
And I told Chocolate many times...
That I don't wish to have a 'STUDY' college life...
I know...
To graduate,
Is a must task for every student...
But I prefer some more challenging task...
Instead...
I hope I can be better which is 'STUDY AND WORK' at the same time...
And the best I wish,
I hope I could have my OWN SHOP before I graduate!
Hee...
That's my HIGHEST TARGET for my College journey...
As that could helps me bare my living expenses my own...
And can experience different thing!
Which is my favorite loh...

It was just a theoretical...
Really quite ridiculous to realize in practical...
Who know...
The initial wish no longer in my first semester of diploma,
Already been achieved... (chewa)
That time...
June of 2006,
I have employed by Aline to work as a SONY digital camera promoter...
-thanks to Jason for introducing
With a RM100 per day pay...
-that time WS only I got working part time
Quite 'syok' also for me...hee...
And since that day...
I never be a PC fair visitor already...
Cham...
One and half year work for Sony...
I met Jayce...
-who is my Boeing dealer in Charge.

Due to WS working in Lexmark after I introduced...
And study time table problem...
Finally I decide to scarify my Sony high payment job...
And swift to work for Lexmark...
Togther with my WS gang and Gary!
-a very persuasive general manager.
With only RM 50 per day pay...
-but high commission lah...
No doubt,
It is really more challenging...
Because low basic need work more to earn more ma...
Between...
I get the chance to go visit another state for free...
Because work for outstation PC fair...
And one of the place was Sandakan!
Which is one year ago...
And that's the best record in my working life so far...
Cause I created a legend there...
Hee...
And,
That's why I met Multiplus boss - Eric
So fast!
15 months work for Lexmark has pass...
Then...
I left...
Cause...
I create Bagoods Network.

Working for three years...
I have some saving...
-admitted that both Sony and Lexmark have gave many chance for me...
Plus I cancel the plan to go UK...
So I used it to try my first business...
From an internet dealer,
To a unknown supplier,
And,
To a partnership Jusco Kiosk dealer now...
Today's of me,
Consider achieved half of my 'Ultimate' target jor...
But,
Sometimes...
Do felt so stress... so tiring... so depress...
Quarrel with partner, no sales, no money pay back creditors, customers complaint, business partner scold, no idea, made wrong decision, no time study, can't concentrate exam, and the most heavy one - high expectation from friends and family...

忍。。。

No matter how,
Mom,
I promise I still will completed my original task de
-graduate Advance Diploma In Banking & Finance
And,
Although is a kiosk but no a shop,
Although is share with partner but not completely myself,
But,
I think...
I should happy of being like this now...
Cause,
I have completed part of the journey that I desire before...
Hopefully In coming 1 more year I can fully accomplish my 'HIGHEST TARGET' lo...

*My special thanks to:

Jayce- You really take care of me a lot... You are the one who made me feel true friend can find in working environment... Thank you!

Gary- You really insert so many valuable thing in my pocket! Without knowing you, I can't have todays confident... Thank you!

Eric- Don't know how to thank you as I never think that I was a promoter that could have your so big helping hand all the way of my business... Thank you!