原来我还是放不下。。。

that is life...
thats all what i can say....
something,
you couldn't have answer...
not 1+1=2
that's...
how beautiful....
of life.....
too...

anyhow....
i miss you...

=>tmr fair...
first time handle laptop fair...
my very important mission.
long time dint have this type of stress dy...
i wan win!
jia you!

losu system down..

today feel bad when received a bad news early in te morning...
it make me no appetie on the spot.
haih...
why like this?
i wouldn't know...
im totally lost for the moment now...
cos my burden is getting heavier n heavier...
i don care what it did to me...
i die doesnt matter...
but still,
i hv to take care of others...
i cant fall...

in this moment..
i just feel i so sorry to my parents...
as i unable to give them a good life style yet,
i seldom accompany them,
i still don wan find girlfriend,
make them worry...
i even dint finished my advance diploma studies.
i so guilty at the moment.

relationship?

almost all my male buddies hv their another part le...
haha...
don't when is mine leh?
hee...

today my blog,
title is "relationship?"

hmm...
i not sure whether is two is better than one or one is better than two...
time pass so fast,
i was 24 now...
ppl do ask me have girlfriend or not...
mom somtimes also chasing me...
stress?
no.
i want to say...
i love my current situation now..
very love.
i hate the me who is in relationship...
very hate.

i was planning to go UK for 1-2 years few years later.
(is planing)
but i definitely hope it can be realize.
thats y i don't want any burden for me to restrict me doing that.
as long as my parent ok,
financial ok,
then i will.
i no planning buy DSLR yet...
as i will have it as my another part then.
although kuivui is trying very hard to convince me now..
congrats kuivui,
u already join the photo shooting world now.

freedom,
is my most happy thg on me now.
as i no need to think what should do and what shouldn't do....
no need bother who like or don't like,
as a single,
i can have my many weird habit without explaining.
i like badminton,
although i play at 11pm till 1am.
although i was very tired or sick.
i like club,
although there are no intention for chase any chicks,
i like Buddhism,
i play Buddhism song,
i go temple pray even very far,
i fly to sabah join sifu for activity.
i like charity,
i will continue my charity action than i gv for my own.
i like malays....
i always make friend with malay,
copy the good habit.
i like eat plain,
i like tradisional activity and product.
i like politic,
i like society,
i like kids,
more than wife,
i like sabah,
i dream to develop sabah one day.

my schedule

sometimes...
my fren ask me...
why u so busy....
what are u busy about actually...

me,
i really don't how explain...
i as a director,
need create many idea to growth the business...
always think how to expand...
every idea and strategy,
have to go through many research and survey,
only can raise up in meeting...
then have to explain to the board,
discuss with board,
convince the board,
then only have the result what to do in the next step.
otherwise,
i only need to do my daily job then ok le.

what is my daily job?
as a small enterprise,
i have to do handle most of the task.
first,
most important is become sales manager.
i have to set the target and think how to achieved it.
and maintain it.
i even need make myself become sales executive,
where i will go on floor doing sales myself.

beside,
i also a driver,
i the one manage the stock transfer to the outlet.
almost everyday i need send stock to my outlet.
if i have more outlet,
that mean i will more busy...
meanwhile,
i also work as a stock keeper where i need collect stock from supplier and arrange the stock in tidy condition in my stall.

next,
i need handle the accessories order.
therefore,
i am the accessories purchaser too.
always,
i have to forecast what to sell in coming season,
and what price is suitable for selling.
thus,
i will always "eat snake' to have tea time with my supplier to "blow water".

other than that,
i also need to handle staff problem.
this is the most difficult part for me.
staff turnover always is the biggest headache among the problem.
beside,
i also the one provide training.
if this problem solve,
basically,
i will get 50% discount of my busy.

in addition,
i sometimes need to become technician.
due to i have sell printer modify,
so sometimes i have to do the technical stuff like modify printer and handle after sales service.
this also quite painful for me as i sometimes it take me whole day but i fail to solve the technical error also.

lastly,
no exception,
as a incharge,
i have to handle some documentary stuff.
like count stock, profit loss, bill, invoice, and etc.
this is the part that i hate the most.

: I

abit tired....
that's y no posting....
not no time...
just no energy...
like Jess lee new song very much...
everyday hv to listen o...
replace ah mei wo zui qing ai de dy...
sleep luh.. bye...

majority is the winner

i'm back....
many ppl birthday recently...
pochan le....
tml is ah kui bday...
happy birthday ya bro...
may your wish come true...

many thg has happened also la recently...
but i was to say i not very happy lo...
hmm....
giant next month will quit le...
im really upset of it...
dono how to express my xin tong...
but life still move on....
will have better place...

saturday that day...
the thg i wish not happen the most happened le....
hmm...
dono wat will going to happen later...
but i do really concern about it....
everyday i read newspaper...
surfing webpage to update the situation...
i hope everythg will be alright...

iuan really not a politician...
but i do like politics....
cause is my interest....
to analyse the strategy...
the leadership....
the management to a large group of ppl...
the neccessay or unneccessary of saying truth...
and...
many thg....

i not clever...
but at least i got some knowledge....
im here not to condemn any person...
cos i no need to do that...
and i like peaceful....
but,
i really serious to mention here...
those who go to rally or comment and critic in internet ppl,
how many of them has read newpaper everyday?
how much they know about politics?
how much they know about a job to become a leader?
and how much,
u have gave to the ppl?

if to say media is poluted...
there is worst in internet.

somethg i wish to say here is,
i not any party insider...
but i do understand some simple theory of become a leader...
of course,
no one is perfect.
that was a sentence to advise be appreciate...
also,
there are no true or wrong of one decision or action...
there are only majority is winner.

sometimes i wanna to talk in detail...
but somehow i feel is too much...
but is my job to explain to ppl what i know and understand...
maybe i not correct...
but i will share if i know....
although i wont make any different...
at least i do my part...

If today u are fight for ur own, that is totally different than if u fight for ppl.
A fighting parent who choose to divorce is totally different than those who choose not to divorce.

THEPCMAN

actually i really very angry de...
but dont know how to say out...
maybe i use to it dy...
but when think of that...
i still cannot release..
my dream house...
just go like this~

i many time i have been in this trouble dy..
i know how to handle my feeling well...
to think how bad was it,
why don i think how good is this happen to me...
i push myself dont pointing finger...
solve it!
thats it...

somtimes...
think of manythg...
feel that today of me like no anythg...
thought can feel proud could buy a house...
but when this happen come..
i also cant do anythg...
just patient again...
hee...

in other part,
business is really problem...
got me having a life like pakistan...
i just like no life...
hmm....
tml...
hv to start work 3 weeks continueosly full day....
again...
this year duan wu jie cant cele with family dy...
cant eat mum rice dumpling...

THEPCMAN
is my new company name...
it will be
THEPCMAN SDN BHD
hopefully,
it will bring a good fortune to our company in coming days...
huat ar!!!!!

sleepy...

wow!
i fucking tired man...
我很累啊！！！！！！！！

in wan take off day...
can i???

我真的感觉有点累了。。。
虽然我的灵魂还在。。。。
在我还没断气前，
我只能够，
一直往前走，
往前走。。。
昨晚终于忍不住了。。。
停下车子。。
在里面，
掉了些眼泪。。

很少说累这个字，
因为创业的第一条件，
就是不能说累这个字。
而我，
不是因为疲累。。。
是不知道，
我还可以做些什么，
才可以给人明白。。。
真的不知道还可以做什么。。。

师傅告诉我说。。
iuan，
因为你是对事不对人的人。。。
不是对人的人。。。
而今天我才明白，
这真的给我带了些不少麻烦。。。

很想睡觉。。。
睡到明天才醒。。。

吊两句粗口先。。。
Ma ci bai!!!!!!
Ham ka ling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

leader

every morning,
most enjoy is the time for my breakfast le...
with coffee,
and xing chew re pau...
long time dint support the star dy...
cos xing chew gave me more fun in reading.

everyday read newspaper gave me lots of knowledge...
and brought me some of ideas to run my business too...
especially the political part.
i must admit that i do really like politic...
it could propably because i like serve the people...
today,
i want to clarify,
i really not the opposition part...
it doesnt because i not agree their effort...
is because i believe,
the best way to be..

hmmm.....
i like Dr Chua,
he is the man i respect from last time he become the minister of health till now...
because,
he is the true leader...
no matter he get his winner result in the comings election or not....
i know he will do what he promise.

regarding our pm...
i know he doing many thg to rescue the country...
is going better in malaysia nowadays....
though it have many dissatisfy event occur.
but is tilll the same idea...
that is...
no people is perfect.
same to no country is perfect...
i think who never become a leader or the head of a party,
would never know how difficult there to manage a team...
some more to manage a COUNTRY...
and thats could be the reason why i know...
and i could accept the shortage of the party leaders,
and the mistake they made...
for me,
i just consider if the leader realise their mistake of not (1)
n did they admit (2)
n going to adjhust it or not (3)..
i going to use my word 'adjust' but not 'change" is because i know is hard for the leader to 'change' a policy or culture. but we can make 'adjust' . :)
the 1,2, 3,
is only i concern to follow a leader.

to become a leader is not an easy job.
i repeat again,
to become a leader is not Easy.
many people do always make complain to their leader...
pandai say many ideas....
pandai ma hou pau to say "if last time follow what i say ma good lo'
but whe ask them to take the flag,
n go the first,
they will stand the most far behind.
i again clarify one thing..
i want to help all the leaders to say a word...
to become a leader,
the most difficult part is,
to announce they want make a decision.
why hard?
that is because leader need take responsible to the decison they make.
if the thg doesnt work,
their need handle the critic by the member...
especiallly those ma hou pau people.
their job is not easy than those thk they sangat pandai who only will gv comment, or "recommendation"....
why i will say this.
is because i really meet a lot this type of people in our society...
who just know to blame leader, complain leader, dissatisfy leader.
but they dont know how hard is the leader doing to serve better, change better, give the best.
yet the hard work doesnt get support but still have to receive many complain.
just hope everyone could seriously thk awhile,
if u thk u are better, why not u stand up n say u want replace the leader? n show ur leadership? n anounce the decision u gonna to make? n explain the strategic n plan?
same i agree Dr Chua says,
opposition party should annouce who going to become pm if they win.

i still say,
no leader is perfect.
but there is only the good leader who dare to say, dare to implement.
if the leader say le, but dint dare to do, or do nothing de,
that is fucking shit leader.
but if the leader has prove what he did so far,
please dont be the peoples' hero to gv statement to make those small small complain n make people like u, n show off u are hebat.
if u thk u are better, dont hesitate.
go n replace ur leader.
i will support u.
because the world is democracy today..
n leader should democracy too...
n dare to admit ur low perform,
n give the chance for the better one to lead the team.

haha,
for me,
my leader idol still him.
the one,
Dr M.
:)

i want achieve what i want

i want achieve want i want.
seeing nicholas get the best actor...
i also feel so envy...
although...
i very like him...
his is my idol since i was in primary.
is not because his handsome..
is not because yeng..
is because i like this guy,
a guy gan zuo, gan dang.
a guy just do n become himself.
is what i admire n respect.
now,
he love have..
family have..
career have...
honour have...
abit envy...
haih...
nvm la..
he is my idol ma.

when leh..
will my love, family, career, hounour come?
:)
i was wish to pray for that...
hee...
anyhow...
i nvr frustrated..
for me...
i knew...
is yours, is yours...
i understand a word "accept"
which is more better than patient.
well,
i do like my job now...
my friends n family...
now i know,
enjoying life,
is doesnt mean i have wat wat wat...
instead,
it just simple..
enjoy every moment,
appreciate every single thg n ppl around..
be grateful of wat we hv...
thats perfect life.

wan to get 5 kiosk by this year end...
beside making every kiosk is profitable...
is REALLY VERY TOUGH JOB...
it could b destroy my entire body n soul.
sometime still need manage quarrel..
work 24hours a day also not exhausted than quarrel one time.
i dono if i can achieved it or not..
if got it,
i want take a week leave...
go a trip...
find a resort...
at beach one...
let the ocean wind blow at me...
off my phone..
nobody,
lanjao ring ring ring from suppliers, customers, staffs, partners..
can disturb me.
i just wan a time which is mine...
where i can burden free...

then,
go for another 5 kisok again...
then trip again...
hmm..
if got ren acc...
jiu very good le..
hee...
dosent matter...
i will like to have DSLR with me.

get le 10 kiosk,
will have another big step for us to move in another huge level.
it could be a new, challenging, hard game to me...
jiayou ba losu...
i know i can do it one...
as i want achieve what i want...

"IT CONCEPT STORE"

the di di kia

have met di di kia!
very surprise...
so happy :)
di di kia = my sai lou...
maybe many fren of me dono who is di di kia...
he is a neighbour of mine from small....
my first friend in my life...
my most longest brother....
n he is my only sai lou i admitted.
he come giant find me...
so surprise...
7 yearsno meet up le....
we all different....

talk with mei choo today...
feel like got one more family member...
haha...
so like yeng chen yeng chik....
but she is a lovely girl...
congrats kui vui oh!

kui vui n me...
no doubt...
still the best partner in the world...
no matter in business or in private matter...
he n me,
should no extra explaination needed.
ah pek chuen also say so...
cham...
gay sudah...

thinking wanna open another kiosk...
so hunger to achieve the target...
sometime still feel not pack enough yet...
my daily time table...
maybe i have no girl fren ba...
or fren also lost many le...
so beside work...
dono wat can do le....
but anyhow...
losu, go go go!

i still heathy despite kurus dy...

i love blogging..
hmm....
is time to cakap cakap here dy...
wat should ppl like zi yan zi yu....
i also dono...
but i just like record down here...
this moment of me...
:)

if you smell lalalalala....
hahaha
the rock has returned!
so happy to see him...
i love his talent...
love the way he perform in the stage...
no matter is physically fight or verbally..
its amuse me to watch it...
and of course his handsome...
hahha

kerja more than 15 jam sehari and it is unstoptable in more than 3 week...
i would say i was a robot.
to more proud of that,
i still able to maintain the rhyme right now....
havent down yet...
despite facing high challenge of display matters...
shopping mall unexpected policy...
changes environment...
typical market taste...
arguement idea with partner...
friendship problems...
staff turnover...
and so and so...
finally come to this today...
happy!
with the result of the giant shah alam performance right now...
syabas of my passion n patient...
and hope i can achieved me project objective.
thanks to those who have spend time to support me.
especially my dude,
soonwei...
although he take my salary...
but he was extremely good to assist me in this task.
i do know i proud to have u support me.

aftter shah alam,
i will cool down awhile to settle the system..
i mean the two place of accessories,
kepong n shah alam...
to make it runing steadily...
then i going to target another new outlet...
this year,
is target to have a total of five kiosk out there.
i have estimate dy...
it is achievable...
no mistaken,
in juneor july,
i will expand another kiosk.
my project is to achieve 10 kiosk in kl with all profitable...
and i gave this project could be achived in two years.
and after that,
i want to be "S&J".
the "S&J" project begin~

life is nothing

ya, we are nothing at all...
we born with nothing...
and leave with nothing...
thats reason,
we most important is appreciate what we have..
no matter is good or bad.

i so sad of looking japan having such a disaster...
i so wish they could have a better day tmr...
i pray for them...

i so touch n respect the people in japan...
their teamwork, their discipline, their care and their love to the country...
especially the hero in nuclear working..
everyday i read the news i also cant hold my tears drop.
it makes me feel,
life is not just money, love, friendship, fun..
it could be more than what our eye can perceived.

i know i care about society...
i know i could be sacrify myself for society too...
if i could have the right for doing so...
i might consider fry to japan to be helper.
i dono why i am...
but i just like to do...
enjoy to do...
i...
i live more than reality....

if,
the world have really burst....
if the 2012 is real...
i would say,
i have nothing to regret about...
i will sit there....
looking around....
have my last view of the blue sky, green field, river...

mau tidur di cc sudah...

tired sei la...
no tidur last nite plus working full day some more.
now still cant sleep.
cos later need pick my brother..
mata pun sudah mau bengkak!

who as last nite want go sing k?
pukul 6 baru balik rumah..
zzz...
but is worth la...
long time no out le..
anyhow,
thx redbull...
i love u~

HAPPY NEW YEAR~

back to work luh!!!!!
wah... so happy of celebrating Chinese new year!
hope everyday also is CNY...
haha....

I just back KL this morning...
reach home at 7am. hee...
cos depart at 3am this morning...
so gan jiong...
but thanks god finally we all safety reach our own destination.

just finish work from jusco...
as usual.
i hang around CC first before go home...
so early back to work...
actually so unwilling one...
but no point..
need to let my staff rest.
as she has work four days contineuosly...
must so tired de...
when i back to kiosk...
i saw neighbour kak pucat face...
and after listen she complain n disatisfy her boss no let her off...
need work 7 days full...
i feel that my decision was really correct.
therefore...
my sacrifice of not delay one day back and join my dearest friends gathering last night..
was worth.

hmm...
actually...
i so miss last nite party...
i so wanted to go...
i know without me the party was not so enjoy one...
(LAnsi hee...)
and i so wish can mad n drunk with them too...
but..
i miss the chance...
guy,
i doing my best dy...
actually i know many thg cant perfect...
thats y before cny,
i meet anna n boon first...
cos i know,
will got high chance we cant meet in cny...
n for wan jiao,
i knew i could be difficult to meet u at other time too...
tats why although wait u at outside ur house i also wan keep the booking appointment on.
n for yu liang n sue...
hmmm...
though i not very close to boon ceit,
but i still going to his house beside bai nian to boon ceit,
i also wish to see u guys...
as i know i cant going anna house party this year le...
:)

hmmm...
so happy leh losu now...
cos just have four days with family...
although it was short..
although it was nothing special beside eat, watch tv, bai nian play la mi...
some play with ally...
but i feel that was just enough...
i like the feel..
now i know...
i nothing much demand..
just gave me have some time with them..
then i feel perfect le :)

now back to work...
feel lots of energy...
later coming 3 days need work 10 to 11
but i still feel good...
i support wan jiao mom a word.
'什么事都想好方面‘
thats what i doing now lo..

a new year...
no matter is good year of what year..
i also thk that was many nice thg coming...
iuan believe...
all things will become better tomorrow...
Yeah~
if ah chuen read this,
sure happy lo him...

during cny,
a lots relative asking me...
my business this n tat..
hmm...
i happy of it..
though i know they ba gua...
but just hope next year when they ask,
i can tell them my shop is where where where...
instead of kiosk.
kui vui, haw goh...
let us gambateh.
go go go!

A New Year,
wish everyone peace, healthy, n happy.

before getting the worst

when start this road...
already know is uneasy...
is understood have to take many risks...
and is prepared to sacrify...
but...
i started...
understand...
it was really tough to accept all this...
i know i can handle it...
i know i am tougher right now...
that y i ok.

iuan not tired...
still on the way going his prefered way...
love himself.
but not more than others.
wanting to achieved some certain level..
will make himself more breathless...

looking up the sky just now...
hoping HIM could understand me..
LOSU couldn't maintain many thing le~

im here at cc

two more days is my big day dy..
i just dono it has come so close...
i really never acknowledge about it.
maybe,
23 jan is not so important for me now le bah...

hmm....
my fren see le this...
must not happy de...
erm...
so sorry...
losu is just think that...
losu is not so important...
a birthday is just a small celebration...
not a big deal.
there are must more meaningful thg to do...
i am no body.

i miss a lot ppl...
this year cny..
actually i so wish to drunk in anna house once again...
i miss last year gathering...
i miss bbq at yu liang house...
hee...
i also miss...
the time we sing k...
we, ws sing k...
:)
except family,
there are nothing important for me anymore...

hope mandy wont because of this,
feel not happy...
things want happend..
nothing can stop it...
i will say...
is end of the story.

family~

is listening music...
drinking two bottle of tiger...
under 18'c air-con...

is tiring...
can feel the shoulder is so hard...
my dad n mom n the little niece just back to kluang...
after 3 days two nite trip at kl...
is so delighted...
can have a time with them at kl...
although i only meet them two days...
although i feel a bit headache of drive here n there...
but i still excited of the time together...
people getting older le...
will more appreciate their family...
always the youngest at home of me...
more harder have the responsibility of family..
but i knew...
i love them...
lots..
more than what i expect i could do...
time pass...
still can remind the time when they still can hug me...
remember the time we play badminton at the road side...
the time we one family went to watch movie together...
also...
i could remember the time how i make them angry in the in car at kluang...
how fight with them...
mom dad old le...
gettting older n older...
happy is they still maintain healthy...
no much time they still can like today...
walk so long in the shoping complex...
when only i can earn enough leh?
how long left i only can bring oversee see snow in the winter season?
i was hoping my career could more stable as soon as possible..
may my wish come true~

因为我不喜欢比胜负

就好像打羽毛球的李宗伟， 如果他尽能力了， 输，也不用紧。 做好自己了，就可以了。有什么好讲的叻？一哥不用输啊？我还是会欣赏他，因为他是个努力的健将。努力的人，是比先天有的还要吃苦。。。我尊敬！胜和负， 真的那么重要吗？ 胜利，也不一定很难。要胜，可以有很多手段。输，也可以不是因为弱。而不喜欢比胜负的我，不是因为怕，而是比较重视自己有没有做好自己。赢，就更开心咯；输，就想下次做更好吧。尊严，对我而说，也不是很在乎的东西。难道做“鸡”就不是人吗？有那个有翅旁的不想当凤凰？有的选择，我都想当哈利波特男主角。嗨，人很奇怪的动物。因为太有思想了。想要这个，想要那个，有时，也没有想过，自己所有的，是怎样来的。 我也是个贪的人。这真常。可是，我个人认为，就不要把自己的快乐建在别人的身上咯。。 嗨。。今天我的邻居小妹被骗了。电话和钱没了。。可怜。。。有时，我不晓得，人民为何，爱投诉政府这，投诉那。。不是说投诉不好，只不过，有没有想清楚，你的投诉，是以大局为重吗？有没有林吉祥那样为人民着想？如果有，我也尊重你。哈哈。如果一百层大厦建了会让经济提升，也不是个坏事。起码如果经济提升，每个人民都有好处。比建学校，我个人会觉得比较有大局为重的。虽然它不一定会有这么好效果，可是政府的决定，也是一种投资啊。。我们做生意可以有机会投资失败，为什么政府不能？若成功呢？反正就是大家要有福同享，有难同党的心态嘛，不要老是想自己的利益。可是，不投资就一定死的啦！常常，我都会给人家批评，说我做的不好，做错了，不应该将，那样。我，当然不高兴。那，我会检讨，再检讨，做好为止。别人认为太迟了，不理了，也没关系。因为检讨不是因为任何人，也只不过是想自己做得更好罢了。有什么做不对的，不美的，丢脸的，下流的，也接受吧。。自己也是人一个。每人都会犯错。圣人也不过是如此。我老友说，再美的美女，也是会放屁，打嗝，挖鼻屎。。。你我他，没有分别。。不用装。。。好啦，说完了，晚安。

im not going

since kui vui have go uk...
manythg force to swollen alone...
but,
thx soonwei has back...
but manythg still uncertain.
i still have to make my own decision...

losu,
you like to become general...
so is difficult when come to desicion making.
i support "that" was a solution indeed...

is been tough...
but thx....
i am tougher now...
thats why i like myself now..
nothing can beat me!

i expect nothing...
i learned...
i will know one day i could fail...
but afraid nothing....
i coming to handle everythg...
as long as my dad n mom are good...
then iuan nothing to scared!

life was different if u perceived ur life differently...
i accept i come from empty....
same i do need accept i go with nothing too...
for me...
the most precious thing i the world is to see people smile :)
i like to see anna smile, cat smile, eunice smile, yuk smile....
haha...
chicks smile most nice one!

in business...
R&D is very important...
i just want convince myself...
iuan ar...
is no wrong u do lots of research...
jia you ba...
hee...

finally i know...
i not old...
still more to do for next generation....
dear fren...
lets spread the love ba...
like mj do.

Ally, i miss u~